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Visual Metaphor

Visual Metaphor are the ramblings of an engineering student up in University of Waterloo, Canada. My favorite rants are about philosophy, morality, religion, technology, society and culture with the occassional psychedelic poetry

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Location: Mississauga, Ontario, Canada

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

my mind turning into poetic mud

wide ranges of amorphous rainbows
dancing as the wind tenderly plays with its colours
hues of magnificence: proclaim earth's glory
humans, on the other hand, are a different story

gardens of swaying porcelain bubbles
swirl and spin, join and caress each other
colours unseen and infinite wonder
humans, on the other hand, such a tragic blunder

Saturday, March 26, 2005

and now for some..urdu poetry (don't laugh)

Hai jo mun
Mein yeh ghum
Saari zindagi say
Chupay huay hum

Aansoon ki piyaas mein
Un Raaton ki yaad hai
Chaand mere sung gai
Dukh bharey rung mein

Jaana hum ko bhi yaad karna
Dur ho kai bhi tum milna
Khoey huay sapno mein
Khoey huay sapno mein

| In myself
| There is this sadness
| From all of life
| I am hidden

| In the thirst of tears
| There is the memory of those nights
| The moon sings with me
| In sadness/pain filled colours

| Dear remember me as well
| Even though you are far, still meet me
| In dreams that are lost
| In dreams that are lost

Edit:
- Rough translation
- Thanks to Faraz and Dania for pointing out some grammatical and spelling mistakes

Inspired by Cat Stevens' Wild World:

Just upon a smile
Your mine
Heaven never meant
To make you divine

I'll lie just to hold you close
Oh baby baby I'm alive now
Ever since I saw you smile
I've lost everything to you

Just upon a smile
Oh baby baby you make me feel alive now
Heaven never meant
To make you mine

~

It's hard to get by
It's hard to make it through life
Cause this world is oh so cold

You'll spend eternity
and
never find your soul
It's so cold
It's so cold
Ruins of a mother's glory
Turning into stone

~

Just upon a smile
Just upon a smile
It's hard to get by
It's hard to get by

The reasons to die
Have left my mind
Now that your mine
Just upon your smile

Everyone smile
We might just get by

crystal cornucopia

One more tear beneath my eyes
One more year and I'll forget my life

How this crystal conrucopia of beauty
Mesmerizes, delights - creates an evocative response
That is what others tell me of it

One more tear beneath my eyes
Memory links us to the illusory high

Well, life is wonderless
And I can't quite understand
But that's just how I am

The crystal cornucopia
Dances round and round my mind
I cannot grasp this dream that others behold

Vices of possession
Singing praises of their heaven
Claiming happiness was just another lie

One more tear beaneath my eyes
And flowers forget their simple lines
Those that fade and those that die
And a few that fly within my mind

Saturday, March 19, 2005

emptying life

emptying life
far from truth
for i lay low
with my eyes weeping
the wrath of God is coming
the wrath of God is coming
the wrath of God is coming
love cannot be shown
for i am not deserving
in pain i sleep
not knowing the world beneath
the mercy of God is coming
the mercy of God is coming
the mercy of God is coming
i am to cold to this overwhelming epiphany
numb to intrinsic humbleness
my life has separated from the will to love

for i lack this simple kindness

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

What is Reality?

Energy
Information
Consciousness
Perception
?

That is delusion
They are but
manifestations
of a more basic assertion
An axiom of will
Belief

The underlying concept that makes anything real
true
absolute
and undeniable

Belief in energy
in information
consciousness
or perception
Belief in belief or non-belief

Rejecting any evidence
sense
or logic
Or Accepting

Believing
what you
want to
need to

Reality given birth

Sunday, March 13, 2005

thoughts

What if the next level of evolution is our thoughts becoming aware of themselves?

I thought of this after yesterday's discussion with Taneem (and co.) about order in chaos in parallel with consciousness emerging from matter which emerged from energy (which got "here" somehow).

I made the point that consciousness is the benchmark from which we can distinguish order in chaos, because otherwise any 'order' is simply groupings of perception (i.e. particles lined up, in a fractal, a square or any predictable pattern in space-time). This universal energy soup pot: is it trying to achieve order or awareness? In my perspective, order doesn't mean anything to the "universe" if it isn't aware. Organizing matter so that it is very neat and in patterns will not accomplish anything different from a random arrangement, unless the patterns allow the matter to transcend themselves. It seems to me that against all odds (i.e. according to Faraz the Law of Entropy, which according to this website is: Energy spontaneously disperses from being localized to becoming spread out if it is not hindered. ) there seems to be matter this is collectively grouping together to form sentient beings (chemical bonds hinder the dispersion tendency and therefore life is able to exist and planets aren't a sea of atoms).

However Taneem said that maybe there's something more. Ofcourse, he likes to talk fruity. My viewpoint stems from my belief that consciousness is the penultimate existence. To be fully aware. But he brings up a good point I hadn't thought before (regardless of its fruitiness). Maybe the benchmark is something else, and not consciousness or awareness. Well then, we obviously have no idea what that is, just like matter would not know what thoughts are and energy equally oblivious to the matter it has "created". Maybe ORDER is not necessarily the means to achieve the goal of this continuum. That is, maybe in early evolution of the universe, order is necessary to convert energy to matter, matter to sentient life forms capable of symbolic thought. Now maybe CHAOS is required to make the next universal paradigm shift. Maybe not.

So I was thinking of what could the next shift be? (even tho we probably will never know, but then again, there hasn't been sentient beings capable of self-reflective thinking)
I was also thinking of how the universe could have begun. It is possible that it was a thought of God...God's mind..imagination. How else can a universe be created out of nothing. In fact, don't we have a gift to achieve that as well? Just close your eyes, and create a universe. Where does it exist? It can be of infinte space, have its own time, own rules and laws (though very hard to imagine differently from or break free from the system we are held within). All of it is contained in a very abstract place: a collection of chemical interactions between your brain cells 'evoke' this universe. This pseudo-universe is only a thought in your mind, but it holds all the keys to making a pseudo thought life being. However, it won't have free will. Only controlled by your mind, what you want it to do. Now what if, IT became distinct. Within your mind, a free-willed sentient being, completely dependent on you continuing your pseudo-universe dream/imagination and not being distracted by a shiny object in the 'real' world, but completely aware of its "existence".

Thoughts becoming self-aware.

EDIT: Not to say this is the only idea out there as the "next step". There is also shared consciousness among groups of people (see: borg) and mind controlling matter to a greater extent (how about time while we're at it? heh) ... which are actually more likely to happen first (if at all).

darn it

yea, so i didn't get the MS job unfortunately. Was a good experience all in all. Now i have one month to find a job for summer....last year repeated. Ill be having interviews the week before exams. Awesome.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

not for words

i wish
i wish

for you to be my princess
sitting on a cherry plum

waiting for me
to arrive on my pegasus

and take you on a magical journey
visiting newborn supernovas

Friday, March 04, 2005

MS Questions

Here are some of their interview questions (paraphrased):

  • What should MS do to change their image?
  • Why do you mean when you say that the IPOD is part of a cultural movement? (a question in response to a discussion about IPOD)
  • What are web services?
  • What is your favorite soft drink?
  • What do you see happening in the future in terms of software in a household environment?
  • What is the open source revenue model like?
  • On average, do you think more professionals work on open source software than an environment made of specialized professionals?
  • Isn't open source software more prone to be taken advantage (due to a larger amount of people look at the software)?
  • Per computer, where do you think Microsoft makes more of their revenue- on PCs or Macintosh?
  • What are your plans after you graduate?
  • Why are software developers important?

This was a very interesting interview because the topics ranged from light questions to social/cultural and also some technical. Just the experience of the interview was such an amazing learning experience. There's obviously a difference in the way they screen people since they want to know HOW you think instead of what you know.

Microsoft Interview

Never would I have thought that I'd get a Microsoft interview in my second year. Wow! I was so excited about this...who woulda thunk?

On top of it, the interview went alot better than I expected. Ofcourse, thats because I always set my goals higher and expectations lower, and perform somewhere in between.

The title is: .NET Evangelist Team Assistant. Hehe, sounds cool, and get to interact with a lot of developers and ISV's (Independent Software Vendors).

Stay tuned for results.